Happiness Comes from a Pair of Jelly Sandals

Today I bought a pair of transparent Jelly Sandals and i'm so happpppyyy!

I asked my friends what they think about it and all said they are ugly and some said so weird haha. But i don't know i like it so much! It's comfy and so simple and so clean and also so vintage haha. I don't care what they say I'm happy with my choice :p 

Then this story reminds me of 2 weeks of my gloomy days. I've been so gloomy eversince I came back from Indonesia like I think a lot and everything just distracted me from God. I've been thinking negatively about my friends, school, boy, etc and now , tonight I've just realized that's not me at all like totally not me. The most unbelievable thing is that I felt like people that are close with me don't love me sincerely and they were just being fake. I felt like all these times I love them so much but why they acted like that? And I started to think that if I feel disappointed with them that means I don't love them sincerely enough because God says "With all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love" ( Ephesians 4:2). I should love them without hoping they love me back (That's my flesh still fail :) ) because that's how Jesus loves me, He loves me just the way I am, He loves me because He wants to not because I love Him first. 

Then about boy, yaah so I heard rumors that saying he likes someone that I know haha and it did hurt me and I started to feel like I'm ugly I'm nothing I'm not pretty I just compared myself to her everything I say every thoughts that came up all just negativity and I feel like Wow, I'm not being grateful at all "For every creature of God is good, and nothing to be refused, if it be received with thanksgiving" (1 Timothy 4:4), 

So yaaah all my negative thoughts definitely saying that I didn't respect God's creature. And from this jelly shoes, I learn a lot, that we shouldn't judge someone by his/her appearances, as my friends said that this is ugly but they maybe havent seen how beautiful it is if I wear it with right clothes, and I feel happy and it fits me well and yah I feel good :) It's just like what's important is not what people think about you but the most important thing is how You are in front of God. And you are worthy and you are loved and you are everything to Him, He sacrificed His Son to wash away your and my sins, there's no greater love than this.