I wish I could be a kid forever. .

There are a lot of things that I can't handle now, there are a lot of things that bring me down , there are a lot of things that i don't understand and life seems to force me to understand them and i just don't know what to do. There are a lot of things that surprise me and i'm so unprepared and yet i'm forced to be ready.

I hate saying goodbye, i hate to see myself hurt somebody, i hate myself when i say something bad, I hate to see my parents grow old..

I wanna be a kid forever.. Where everything seems so perfect, you don't know anything, all you know just having fun and playing around and messing things up. You know nothing about death, about life, about pain, about heart break, you know nothing. You can do anything you want , you can say anything you want whether it's bad or not because your parents blame someone else for teaching you bad words, so different with being a teenager.

Lately i've been feeling like time flies so faaast, i'm so unprepared seriously and it makes me feel sad to see my parents grow old, i hate to see everyone change. If there were no time machine that could bring me back to my childhood, at least let me grow up and grow old alone , and let my family and everyone stay the same.......