Don't you hate being neglected and abandoned?

Have you ever felt like you're unwanted , you're unworthy?

I've just experienced one of the worst day of my life, I thought that day would've been so much fun but it turned out differently. I didn't feel happy at all, it felt so hard just to smile. I tried to think positively but i couldn't escape the truth.

Sometimes i think, i wonder, i feel, do everyone that i consider as my best friend even from the first time we met, consider me the same way? feel the same way as i do ? Why do they make me feel like I'm wanted, I'm loved, I'm worthy but the next day they make me feel opposite. I hate myself for trusting people so much, like as long as they treat me well even i've just known them for a day i can consider them as my best friends , i put my expectations and hopes in their hands so high without knowing that it might be just a courtesy or something. It hurts me to the core to see them treat me like this.