GOOD NEWS!!

I have no bad marks for the mid tests !!! Just can't believe, i was so sure there were some tests that I couldn't do , but THANKS GOD ! everything's beyond my expectation, now I know the meaning of doing your best and let God do the rest , i mean i've known it for a long time, but it really happened !!

Happy Birthday to my lifetime friend ! Gloria !!! Can't believe you're 16 now :) About this birthday girl.. I think she's my 1st friend in the world , like when i was born, she's already been my friend. We were like twins, we wore the same dress, same school stuffs, same hairstyles, same handwriting haha. But the sad part was , we separated in highschool , I went to different school. But the bond that we've made remains the same :) She's still my little girl who never grows taller. So , i wish you all the best from the best , and I love you. God Bless you

So, my mom told me that my dad is so worried about me, he's worried about my social life as he barely sees me hang out with friends :) Actually, yep that's true i rarely go out with friends, i usually accompany my mom goes to salon and i go to mall, hang out alone buy some drink, go to bookstore then back to my mom. I don't feel like I have friends who are really2 close to me, i make friends with everyone so anyone whom I've ever talked to is my friend :) My dad's in Brunei right now, he'll be back in 10 days . I miss him , Xo

Tonight is just another crazy night. Yeah i feel all mixed up. I guess i have made promise to myself that i won't let that kind of things bother me. Not as easy as i thought. I feel like i have to deal it on my own.

NO LOVE ! mark it ! NO LOVE until college , period. School's gonna start soon, and i'm not ready at all. I feel like i need more time to escape from the realities , which don't seem nice and cooperate.

Hello september, here we come , we're getting closer to 2012 which means we're getting closer to college , period. Speaking about love, it isn't bothering me anymore i have to keep myself on the track :) I'm not as fun as i used to be. I'm a bit loner now , just hanging out with some friends and keep myself away from dramas. I was just thinking about my blog , it seems private but you might think it's weird to keep it public, haha , i don't really care about that , i post what i like write what i think and what i feel :)

How to hold back your feeling for someone , anyone knows ? I promised to my self i won't fall in love till i go to college, but seems like things are out of the tracks. You know, when you fall in love , there's no sign , you don't force yourself to feel that way , you just do. There are reasons why i choose to hold it back , i know nothing is impossible , but in my case , it seems impossible. There's something i feel about him that i don't feel for anyone else, something i see in him that i don't see in anyone else. I'm just sharing , haha , i won't let this kind of feeling bother me. Love moves in mysterious ways :)

Lets talk about love...

Since there are so many people who are falling in love right now :)

Im having holiday right now , don't go anywhere , so i spend a lot of time in my bed watching DVD and im so into romantic drama , i've been watching about 10 dvds about love and i found out that there are a lot of definitions about love , a lot of ways to express it , and how love works on its way. There's up and down in relationship , but what matter most is how couple works on it and find the way out :)

I feel like its been a long time since the last time i felt in love haha , i enjoy my life as a single someone right now , i don't have a crush , yeah i do , but a fiction crush :) you know , day dreaming , imagine sweet love story , and so on .

I am 16 right now , and i want to be mature when it comes to relationship i mean some people assume that love is just a game that we can pause , quit anytime we want to , they don't think forward , i want a relationship that will last , i want to be with a guy that will be my husband , a dad of my children , the only man i'll spend the rest of my life with . And right now i just havent find the right guy and i don't wanna be in rush , if something's bound to happen, it will happen , at the right time , with the right person and for the best reason .

Right now i have a lot of dreams that i want to make them real , i wanna be accepted in sccc , get my master degree , afford my own money , but for sure , i want to have a family , i don't like people who think their relationship is temporary , they just don't think something will happen in the future , who knows ?

LOVE IS PASSION. OBSESSION. SOMEONE YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT. SOMEONE YOU FALL HEAD OVER HEELS FOR. FIND SOMEONE YOU CAN LOVE LIKE CRAZY, AND WILL LOVE YOU THE SAME WAY BACK. LISTEN TO YOUR HEART. NO SENSE IN LIFE WITHOUT THIS. TO MAKE THE JOURNEY WITHOUT FALLING DEEPLY IN LOVE, YOU HAVEN'T LIVED A LIFE AT ALL. YOU HAVE TO TRY, BECAUSE IF YOU HADN'T TRIED, THEN YOU HAVEN'T LIVED .