There's only one week left. I really don't wanna think about next week. I'm starting to feel so mournful and sad. Like, i just don't know how to describe my feeling right now, i'm not ready at all to let go everything that i have here. I will miss my chinese tutor, like she has been teaching me since i was 8 or 9 , and now i'm 17 years old, that's crazy right?! She is the best and she knows me very well. I will miss my parents as well but you know there's a difference between parents that will always be there for you no matter what and they are like continuously has a relation with you that will never end no matter how far you are with them. I just feel so sad you know, it's hard to break out your comfort zone and reach your dreams, you have to sacrifice a lot, including your feelings. I'm feeling so anxious right now, i wanna cry but i can't and i don't want to.

So today is your birthday

I'm thinking of you

You've been my friend in history

Past, present, and future

Dance among the ribbons of the birthday balloons 

Smile through the lit candles

Sing to the classing happy tune

Eat the cake of wishes

Spin among the music and laughter in your perfect dress

Within you I've found the perfect friend

Someone who I know will be there till the end

Still as the wind on a hot summer's day

Still as your friendship I'll never betray

Within you I've found the perfect friend

A mind that i can comprehend

A person i see is so much like me

With whom I can be real and never pretend

Happy Birthday Gloria Setia Utama. I've posted the same thing last year on your birthday too here ;) So this is the 2nd. I can't attend your birthday party that's so sad. I'm leaving on the day you will be celebrating your once in a life time' moment. But I wish the party would go so well and I bet you will look soooo prettttttty later. Eventho we're not as close as we used to be but still you've got a special place in my heart , no one can replace you. You are my very first friend when i first came to this world. I just feel so sad that i can't spend a lot of time with you before i'm leaving. Come to melbourne yah we'll hang out and have fun. I wish nothing but yes, the very best for you, for your future & your present. May Jesus bless you and guide you, every move that you make every step that you take may Him bless and protect you. I'll see you soon! 

I love you ,