Almost 2 months ! hehe i love melbourne so far! I'm getting used to living in my room, which i've been complaining over and over again. 

Today's BETHANY INTERNATIONAL CHURCH christmas celebration 'More Than a Story' :D I feel blessed for the church God has led me to :) I love my fellowship group, the koko2 cici2 who are so nice and friendly and take a good care of me. I love my church, i just feel so into it and it brings me closer to God, i feel excited to go to church every sunday and join the community and events they hold. 

I wanna share what i got today from the church. Christmas is more than a story that we hear every year, there's more than that, It's about how we share the love, how we throw away our selfishness, how we pray for the others more than we pray for ourselves, how we throw away our "My,myself,I" thing. Repent,repent,repent, it's never been too late for God, open your heart for Him, give Him space, surrender all Your life to Him, all of your heart. Ask Him to give you the holy spirit, so in every season, every good and bad times, you will be reinforced by the holy spirit so when the bad things hit you, you won't rely on human, you won't look for them anymore, you will look for Jesus, the one and only. You won't rely your life on human anymore, you will surrender everything and trust Him that He's the only one who can solve your problem. And let the holy spirit overflow your heart so that you can be a channel of blessing for the other people, for your surroundings, for your friends, for your families, etc. Humble yourself and ask God to fill you with Holy Spirit so that in every move you make and everything you do God work upon it through the Holy spirit so only God' will work upon it, no more "My plan" "My will' etc, He loves you soo much, he has died for you on the cross, why do you still doubt Him that He has the best plan for you, He takes care of you, He helps you to solve your problem, He's there for you. If He hadn't loved you , He wouldn't have died on cross to save you :) God bless you !

Happy Graduation Day Cindy Tandiyah! 

I'm so proud of you ! All your hard work paid off finally ! You look so beautiful in your own made dress ;') I wish i could be there but i can't. My prayers go without wherever you are wherever you go. May Jesus bless you in every step that you take and every move you make. No you are entering a new world, not as a student anymore, but as a full time worker. May He bless you in every decision you make and i know you will be very very successful ;') I see how God works upon your life, for every sorrow, tears, ups and downs, He never disappoints you right  ? It may be hard to understand His plans at first but you see how everything is perfect and beautiful at His time. You're such an inspiration and role model. I miss you so bad and I want to see you in that dress in real but maybe later ;') I love you so much and can't wait to see you. Keep praising His name because without Him you can't be there today :') Remember everytime you feel sad and down, JESUS IS THERE !!!! HE'S RIGHT BESIDE YOU AND ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS FEEL HIS PRESENCE !!!!! HUG HIM FIND HIM !!! ;') 

First post from Melbourneeeeeeee! Hahaha i'm here finallyyyy !! Living my new life, new experiences, new environment, breaking out my comfort zone !! I adapt very fast here, except for the room, it's so hard to be an underaged student, can't have my own apartment, can't make a contract for mobile phone, people ask so many things if you want to buy something like modem! yesss i bought modem last week and the seller asked so many things, passport , id card, phone number, credit card blah blah blaaaaaah.

 I don't really like my room, i'm a very clean person tbh, i wanna throw up if i see something dirty and ah i don't know if i tell you personally you will think i'm weird but seriously i'm a very hygienic person so yaaa i spend 2 hours everyday cleaning up my room! And i get a very weird phobia and , it is sink's hole! OMG this is so weird i know but i find something like sticks inside the hole omagaomagaaa i can't tell you how much i hate it! It's very disgusting nooo way ! i close my eyes everytime i wash my face and brush teeth because i don't want to see the hole ! I just can't adapt with the room. 

But i have to admit life is so different now, you are forced to be independent, no maids, no drivers, oh! I have my toes scuffed because i walked too long, haha yes! And i learn how to use washing machine aka laundry! first time in my life haha when i first used it i was like "Oh, so this is how it works" The sad thing is still, i can't cook and i can't use stove, so i have to buy food outside which is more expensive and blaah, when i'm hungry i just eat snack and light meal. 

I love city! Like my dorm is 20 minutes by train from city so it's a bit like "suburb" i finish school at 4.30 and daaaang there's nothing to do after that, yes clean up my room! ;) But overall beside my room and SINK, i love it heree, and the weather, also i still can't adapt with it, the wind is omagaaaaa so cold! Suddenly raining , windy, sunny, ah blah, 4 seasons in 1 day.

 My friends are from Laos, Vietnam, Thai, China, Arab, SriLanka, soo fun! Haha i hate marketing the most , like rmm , it's so hard to keep up with the lessons, i love communication&skill ! Imeldaaa i love you she's so niceeeeee and let you go home 30 minutes earlier haha go Imelda! I go to BIC , Bethany International Church, i love it thereeee , the atmosphere, everything about it is perfect! Thanks Jesus for leading me to the right place <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

There's only one week left. I really don't wanna think about next week. I'm starting to feel so mournful and sad. Like, i just don't know how to describe my feeling right now, i'm not ready at all to let go everything that i have here. I will miss my chinese tutor, like she has been teaching me since i was 8 or 9 , and now i'm 17 years old, that's crazy right?! She is the best and she knows me very well. I will miss my parents as well but you know there's a difference between parents that will always be there for you no matter what and they are like continuously has a relation with you that will never end no matter how far you are with them. I just feel so sad you know, it's hard to break out your comfort zone and reach your dreams, you have to sacrifice a lot, including your feelings. I'm feeling so anxious right now, i wanna cry but i can't and i don't want to.

So today is your birthday

I'm thinking of you

You've been my friend in history

Past, present, and future

Dance among the ribbons of the birthday balloons 

Smile through the lit candles

Sing to the classing happy tune

Eat the cake of wishes

Spin among the music and laughter in your perfect dress

Within you I've found the perfect friend

Someone who I know will be there till the end

Still as the wind on a hot summer's day

Still as your friendship I'll never betray

Within you I've found the perfect friend

A mind that i can comprehend

A person i see is so much like me

With whom I can be real and never pretend

Happy Birthday Gloria Setia Utama. I've posted the same thing last year on your birthday too here ;) So this is the 2nd. I can't attend your birthday party that's so sad. I'm leaving on the day you will be celebrating your once in a life time' moment. But I wish the party would go so well and I bet you will look soooo prettttttty later. Eventho we're not as close as we used to be but still you've got a special place in my heart , no one can replace you. You are my very first friend when i first came to this world. I just feel so sad that i can't spend a lot of time with you before i'm leaving. Come to melbourne yah we'll hang out and have fun. I wish nothing but yes, the very best for you, for your future & your present. May Jesus bless you and guide you, every move that you make every step that you take may Him bless and protect you. I'll see you soon! 

I love you , 

It's official, i'm leaving for melbourne on september 28th. I'm actually good enough at pretending how excited i'm to move , but i'm struggling inside my heart , i don't really feel like leaving at all. I wanna be here with my parents and my sisters. Well, im typing this with tears running down my cheeks, haha weird but yes it's getting harder day by day. I've never been so far away for a long time from my family esp. my mom. I'm positioning myself now closer to my parents especially my mom bcs it's a natural thing that daughter is closer to mom but that doesn't make me love my dad any less. 

I've just got my visa done about 3 days ago and today i bought the tixs to melb. I've got everything that i need later, but i don't know, my heart's shaking and doubting the leaving as everything's well prepared. I saw how my mom and dad work so hard to fly me away to college and all the efforts they have made for me is priceless, it can't be measured by anything in this world. They are so busy preparing everything for me, like i don't know what to do without them. Actually i kinda get annoyed everytime they tell me to study hard, deep deep deep inside my heart i've made myself promises , i've made commitments that i have to be successful later, no excuses. I will pay off all my parents sacrifices later, i know i can't pay off their love, but at least i wanna make them proud of me, and all the sacrifices they've made must not go waste.

I hate to think about next 3,5 years when i've finished my bachelor degree, i'm going to be a 20 year old girl(?) no i don't want to be called a woman or lady because it makes me feel like i'm not a kid anymore that can sleep right beside my mom cuddle with her and do stuffs that i used to do. I'm forever my parents' little girl. I hate growing up , but that's part of life. 

I hope that when i leave there will be no tears , like please... ? i'm begging... I'm leaving for good, for college , you guys should be happy for me, i don't want to leave with burdens in my heart, I want you to be excited for me as well. I mean it if you cry i will be soooo saaaaaaaad to leave, so please, don't cry please... I want everyone to be happy like for once in my life please... It will become harder for me to leave if you guys cry and don't wanna let me go... i know you guys don't wanna let me go but please at least pretend like you want. Especially for my parents, they will accompany me there for a week and mom please don't cry yah, enjoy your life here, be happy, and don't worry because i will be fine ;) just keep doing what you like to do, go to salon, go shopping, hang out with your friends, acupuncture :) And dad, keep diving and going to diving places that you've been dreaming of, but don't go to loonggg ! And dad, don't smoke too often, i want you to concern your health :) And for my sisters, keep being crazy and touching each other' ass ! haha YOLO! So please no cry yah be excited and happy for me please, please , please, if you don't want me to leave with burdens in my heart then please don't cry, together we celebrate my leaving for good with laughters and smile ;) I'll be back on december kok, and i'll be going home very often i promise, you guys don't come here please, the tix is very expensive and the hotel too so it will be better if i myself come home ;) I just hope you guys see this post and promise that you won't cry! :)) 

Wedding

"I vow to help you love life, to always hold you with tenderness and to have the patience that love demands, to speak when words are needed and to share the silence when they are not and to live within the warmth of your heart and always call it home."

Talking about wedding, it's every woman's dream. Once in a life time, finding your prince that you've been waiting for so long.For me i interpret wedding as a fairy tale that comes true. I've always been imagining about what my wedding will look like later. I'm 17 yo now, i do wanna walk down the aisle when i turn 23 - 25 yo hopefully i've achieved everything that i've been dreaming of, careers, job, etc. I love wedding, it is like a happily after after story does exist and I feel like you're a princess living in your castle with your prince. I wanna put on the best wedding dress ever, cut my wedding cake, say "I do", vow, and kiss my husband. I wanna get married in tuscany, italy. 

 

Pretty much inspired by breaking dawn movie haha. But i swear, breaking dawn is so romantic, bella and edward are beyond sweet, hopefully my husband will treat me like edward treats bella hehehe. I wanna have 2 kids boy and girl but i put everything in God' hands, if He gave me one, it's ok , gave me 4? Say thanks ;) Oh i want some of yiruma songs played on my wedding day ;;) And a thousand years too by christina perri ! I so can't wait for my wedding day, and for my happily ever after story to come true...