just saw demi lovato and selena's confession about their friendship , suddenly i thought about my best friend , karina ! haha , yes she's my sister my girlfriend my family my bestfriend my entire world !

i met her when i was in junior high school , she's my FIRST friend in junior high school , we acquainted on student orientation , i was like , hi i'm ivana, what's your name ? glad to meet you !

Time flies so fast , about her , she's the only one who understands me so well , we HAVE NEVER JUDGED each other , we dream together , we cry together , she's so supportive , she always cheers me up, she is always be true to me , she doesn't fake , she always reminds me when i start thinking negative things, she says the truth eventhough she knows that it will hurt me but i know she wants the best for me.

i adore her hair and her eyes for sure ! she has the best eyes i've ever seen :) she's always there for me , i love texting her a lot of quotes when she was down . i love suddenly texting her a lot of lyrics that no one will understand what's the meaning of that , but she understands , i love texting her just like "howohwowo" "whawefaojdf" "asdfafj" seriously hahaha .

i don't say everything goes perfectly in our friendship , troubles come and go , but our friendship stays strong. i remember, we didn't talk almost half year in junior high school grade 8, when i greeted her , she ignored me , but at the end of the year, she came to my class and ok i won't tell you this part but we rebuilt our friendship till now .

And recently , in january 2011 we didn't talk for almost 1 month , i blamed my self at that time , i was so selfish , and i missed her so much , seriously i felt so lonely i usually text her good lyrics but at that time i was so under pressure i had no one to talk with , but suddenly she texted me first and we apologized each other and forgave each other. she hugged me and i felt like crying at that time , she's sweet !

i know her attitude how to control her , karina is a type of girl who doesn't like being forced , when she shared something ,actually she didn't need any advices , she just wanted to share so the problem wouldn't eating her up inside, just like me :) she's rarely listen to any advices , she does what she thinks it's the best , and i stayed next to her , supporting her !

i've just come back from leadership camp . IT WAS AMAZING , this is the first time i feel very2 blessed , i feel so thankful for everything that i have in my life. Jesus's just too good , He's sacrificed Himself for me and you. I learned a lot of things from this camp , i learned not to be controlled by my ego , i learned to respect people , to be more discipline. I was shock when i knew we would be guide by 2 commandants. It was crazy they screamed all the time. They are commandant Novan and Tulus. I felt like going home when i knew they would treat us like that. I love this camp more than anything else. I felt so close to Jesus. I can't describe this camp by words , this camp just soooo AMAZING ! Jesus , bless those people , commandant novan and tulus so they can praise You more. They can fill this world with Your name Jesus. NamaMu yang dipermuliakan Yesus !

Life isn't as easy as it seems . I just want to erase my past , i mean , not erase , but forget it :) i just want to be a brand new person, people may judge me bcs of my past , but i'll prove them wrong. People can change can't we?

Everyone has ever made mistakes but we learn from it to be a better someone. I cant make people stop talking about me, i'll let them talk what they want to talk as long as i believe in my self that im not like that.

I have to stop thinking too much about what people say about me , i should care less for something that doesnt bring any benefits for me. Gonna focus on Jesus only , i mean in this life , problem won't stop hitting us, but we have to be strong and don't let those problems make us down, we live only once , why don't we spend it for something useful that will bring happiness joys and fun ?

God knows the best , He knows what's the best for us , what we need the most. Remember when people hurt you, how many times you've hurt Jesus but He still forgive you? The battle is Lord's , you have no need to worry, as long as you have Jesus, problem may come and go but Jesus will guide you through it all , He will give you strength , joys , and happiness above the sadness :)

Thanks Jesus for everything You have done in my life, everything is just too good to be true :')

Thanks for always being here whenever i need You. Your hands wiped away my tears, You lift me up when i fall. I know there will always be a sunshine after the rain, just like Your promises. Everything that i think it's good for me, it might be not for You, i know You want to give me the best of all :') although through the way that i dont even understand and its painful . But i know Your plans are never wrong. I wake up every morning and feel Jesus's blessings. Never lose your faith even when you think you're not going to make it, He will help you till the end of the day, God works in mysterious way. No matter what your situation, no matter what your circumstance might be, God knows already, God cares anyway, and God loves you regardless ! :)

happy belated 2011 :)

time flies so fast , people come people go . I don't think 2011 will be the best year ever but i know with God nothing's impossible.

in the beginning 0f 2011 Jesus gave me a test , he definitely wanted to see my loyalty . I lost friend, i lost everyone that i love the most , that mean a lot in my life . Everyday seems so gray , i lost hope i lost everything. But 2011 should be more mature , i'll show the cold shoulder, gonna be more mature in facing problems , what i should care the most and what i should let it flow, i'm kind of a girl who thinks too much for something that i shouldnt care. Whatever people said about me , im the only one who know myself the most :)

been a long time since the last time i wrote on my blog .

haha i've just finished my middle exams , i did my best on the tests and im confident about the results :)

wow its a new month , OCTOBER will be the best month ever .

My mom's birthday , my cousins , my friend , school trip , so OMJ hahahaha

well , im so freaking pissed right now.

i feel like tip ex-ing "best" from bestfriend. i have no mood to talk about it right now .

but i dont give a damn, let them do what they want im ok all the way ;)

err..

its been a long time since the last time i updated my blog

my life has been so random and err..

too much "err.."

sadness and happiness came and went away so easily :(